Maybe you already saw it on the news.
Jayden Morrison, a four year old autistic boy who went missing on Christmas Eve, was found dead in a retention pond near his grandmother's home.
These stories all too often turn out the same way. A child goes missing. There's a frantic search. Sometimes the child is found with a few scratches and bruises, but alive. But more often than not the stories that make the news, that is to say, the ones that have gone on for an extended period of time, end near a body of water; a canal or a pond or a river... in tragedy.
I read a statistic once that said that 90% of wandering deaths were drownings. I can't remember where I read it and I don't know if that's true, but it wouldn't surprise me if it is. Mae is drawn to water like a moth to a flame and that attraction is, without a doubt, my greatest fear in this life (followed by her sprinting into a busy street as a close second).
|Trying to figure out how to get in to the water...|
She's about to take her shoes off...
All afternoon I found the words "there but for the grace of God go I..." going through my head.
The quote isn't a perfect fit, but in a way it sums up one small part of the reason that I think so many in the autism community feel these losses so keenly (in addition to the fact that these losses are heartbreaking and horrible in and of themselves).
Many of us know all to well that on any given day if we look away at the wrong time or find ourselves distracted for a second too long we could easily find ourselves mourning the loss of a beloved child.
I will never forget the day that we almost lost Mae.
|Taking off her shoes to go in the river.|
There's about a twenty foot drop a few
feet in front of where we're standing.
When we arrived at the condo I was pleased to find that it was completely child proofed. There was nothing that our rambunctious girls could break or damage. With the girls playing in the living room I slipped into their bedroom and began unpacking their clothes.
A few minutes later Sadie sprinted into the room, yelling that Maggie had opened the door and gone outside.
Paul and I flew into the living room to find the living room and saw a side glass door open. It had been locked when we'd come in, but Mae had managed to turn the dead bolt and the door stood open. We raced outside and saw our eighteen month old girl toddling across the parking lot.
She hadn't made it far but there was a lake about a hundred feet from where we found her.
I don't think we realized how true those words were. We hadn't yet realized how drawn Maggie was to water, how she would start to take off her socks and shoes while standing holding my hand at a cliff above the river at my parents' house, or while looking at a giant tank of sturgeon at a museum. She's always ready to go for a swim, with or without me.
For the last three years we've been vigilant. In the beginning we wondered when she would outgrow the phase where she took of sprinting in one direction, enjoying the feeling of running, giggling all the while, completely oblivious to danger.
When people tell me we should get a baby sitter so that we can go out without the kids I nod and agree, knowing all the while that there are very few people we'd leave Mae with because of her tendency to wander. It's hard for people who haven't experienced a child who's determined to wander first hand to understand how hard it can be to keep them from doing just that.
That walk pretty much shattered any illusions I had about her tendency to take off coming to an end any time soon.
Whenever I read comments on the stories that follow these tragedies there are people criticizing the parents and talking about how negligent a person has to be to lose a child. Yet I have to say that in a house with an alarm system that lets me know if a door is opened, with bars on her windows as far as they open, with double baby gates and door handle covers and specialized door locks, I still find myself worried that my super strong little climber will get past our safety precautions and get outside without anyone noticing, or will wander off when we're out and about... because if there's one thing that the last four years have taught me it's that when you have a child who's prone to wander the smallest distraction can lead to tragedy.
Please pray for Jayden's family tonight. I cannot imagine what they must be feeling as they enter into this Christmas season without their precious little boy.
How incredibly tragic. I can't even imagine their pain and don't want to. We live in Southern Ca, so don't have lakes and ponds nearby, but about 40% of homes have swimming pools that terrify me. I have an escape artists, too - and it happens in a nanosecond. Especially, interestingly enough, when two adults are home and both think the other has the child. When I get a sitter for our four, I have to get sisters to come. One watches three of my kids and one is responsible for my little dynamo.ReplyDelete
Cam, I knew someone with an autistic child who also raised prize-winning German Shepherds for police and military. She told me raising an autistic child was much like raising a beagle in comparison. This happened after she offered to kennel a farm-boy serviceman's personal pet beagle whilst he was in Iraq with one of her Shepherds. This woman was used to big, powerful, sometimes wild dogs. Yet she wasn't prepared for a beagle. Beagles, you see, have a prey drive and need to hunt that is greater than any "training" can really ever fix. The beagle can never be trusted off-lead, there will always be something calling the dog beyond. You can, however, modify the behavior, for instance giving the dog plenty of time to run and hunt in a protected environment. She modified her yard for this dog.ReplyDelete
Her autistic daughter was also drawn to pools and water. She had an in-ground pool (her daughter was the youngest of 8, most of them much older). While she briefly considered filling in the pool with concrete she instead tried the same thing she did with the beagle. The little girl lived with floties on during the summer, and was conditioned to always ask an adult to watch and the result was cake (the little girl's favorite). It worked. Granted, this little girl was much more severe than Mae (knew only ma, cake, swim, yes and no by age 6 ) so there may be a better approach for her.
And by this I hope you don't take offense, I am not comparing Mae (or the other girl) to a dog, nor am I suggesting that dog-type training is the answer. Just sharing how another parent of an autistic child survived the call of the water.