It’s almost here. And I’ve been planning on coming up with a plan since Epiphany ended, but really nothing seems quite right. The last few years I’ve given things up, like sweets and soda, but usually the bulk of my Lenten devotions are adding a couple extra rosaries a day, or something like that.
This year nothing seems right, at least on the “giving up” side (I know that I can come up with a dozen things to “do”, but I’ll turn my attention to that once I’ve finished brainstorming the fasting aspect). The migraine thing has meant that I have, for the most part, given up most of the things I would normally think of giving up for Lent. Now that I’ve begun to realize that everything from candy and soda, to bacon and pepperoni (and pretty much everything else vaguely unhealthy) seem to be migraine triggers, the realm of foods that I’d usually given up is already mostly out of the picture. And giving up something I have infrequently, that might give me a migraine, isn’t really a sacrifice. It’s more like common sense.
I can’t give up the Internet, as so many people I know are doing, since my business is online…
I thought about giving up meat… but as someone who was a vegetarian for ten years I know that it’s not really a huge sacrifice for me.
I’ve toyed with the idea of giving up my irresponsible use of pregnancy tests each month, but then I wonder how that would actually work. What if I actually do find myself in pregnant during Lent? Then I’ll need to know as soon as possible, so we can find out if there is a progesterone problem. So… would I give up pregnancy tests unless I’m more than a week past the day when I would have (realistically) tested? That seems kind of lame too (although I think I’m going to do it as part of what I’m doing…).
I already wear dresses all the time… and since I have a covering on the majority of the time too it’s not like that would be much of a change.
On the other hand, since my attempt at praying at least part of the Divine Office every day has for the most part been a failure (or at least inconsistent, with weeks where I’m good and weeks where I’m not) I think I will make that commitment, or at least commit to praying morning and nighttime prayers and to attempting to pray afternoon prayers. I’m thinking of maybe adding a rosary on my own when I’m walking (since these days we usually just do a family rosary) too, but I feel like that’s what I do every year. And I have a Lent book of meditations I’ll be reading and following along with (and reviewing).
I’m also torn on the fast. I haven’t fasted… since the Lent before I was confirmed. The last four years in which I’ve actually been Catholic have been: pregnancy, nursing, pregnancy, nursing. I am still nursing. But I’m nursing a nineteen month old. Which makes me wonder if I should try? I absolutely don’t advocate pregnant or nursing mothers of little ones to fast… but with a toddler only nursing once or twice a day? I’m just not sure (any experience or advice here is appreciated… I’ve always been pregnant by the second Lent, so it’s never been an issue!).
So… that’s my not-so-helpful-I’m-so-obviously-not-ready-for-Lent-stream-of-consciousness post.
What are you doing? I’m all for stealing Lent ideas at this point, because I’m certainly not doing a great job of formulating any sort of plan on my own.