As I looked back over the pictures from the last month, it was rather odd. I could track what had happened each day, without knowing the actual dates, by the expressions in various pictures and the hospital bracelets that hadn't yet been removed (lots of "fake smiles" from my years of dance classes and performances!). Days 205-207 were the saddest to view because the pictures are just so happy, and now, with twenty/twenty hindsight I know what's coming.
Then again today was a bit of a sad day. For the most part everything has been normal. The two girls keep us all so busy that it's very easy to fall into a routine. Today, however, Sadie chatted quite a bit about the "new baby" finally telling me that she felt sad about the baby going to heaven. I told her that it's okay to feel sad. But seeing Sadie sad pretty much breaks my heart. And it has been a very stressful month for her with so many big changes.
Hopefully we'll be falling into a routine soon and life will be a little more normal for all of us (especially Sadie). Tomorrow we'll have a few extra distractions since we're planning on driving out to see the main campus and go to Mass at the chapel there (although we are planning on making the parish we found last week our parish). And distractions are a very good thing...
I promise to make an effort to be more upbeat tomorrow! We have been very blessed. I need to keep reminding myself of that fact!