I left Mass during the homily and promptly burst into tears on the way to the car.
My head was somehow managing to be pounding, while spinning and foggy and numb all at the same time. And then the right side of my face went numb again, and I totally panicked.
Which felt kind of silly because the right side my face has gone numb many, many times and I haven't panicked since the first half dozen times it happened when I went to the clinic back in California and was told that it was just a migraine thing and I was fine. But now, with the whole hey-you-might-have-a-tumor thought first and foremost in my mind, the numbness seemed much, much more frightening, even though it was the exact same numbness I've experienced a hundred other times.
Even though it very well could just be a weird migraine thing.
Tonight at 9:30 I'll have the MRI.
I'm also beginning to realize why it's a good thing to write down what's going on every day. Because last night when I was feeling better I was sitting on the couch with my planner thinking "You know, today wasn't that bad. I feel fine right this second. I bet nothing's wrong. This is silly. My hearing has even been great today." and then I went over the day in my head and had to write down: headache, dizziness/fogginess, numbness in face, and ringing in ears x
There was also a moment where I showed Paul a list of symptoms for an acoustic neuroma and his eyes got wide as he said "that's totally you" and I said "well except for the taste thing" and he looked at me like I had lost my mind and then I realized that I've been preparing my favorite meals for everyone else and complaining that the food tastes horrible/off while everyone else loves them and then I put tablespoon after tablespoon of hot sauce and red pepper flakes on everything I eat to taste anything...
And how does one miss something like that? I have no idea. I kept saying "I must be getting a cold" even though no cold ever appeared.
This morning I'm feeling great. And I am definitely ready for it to be 9:30. Thank you all for the prayers.
Whatever happens; we; your friends are here to support you and pray with and for you.ReplyDelete
Will be thinking about you and saying prayers all day!ReplyDelete
All will be well. God bless.
Cam, three priests and two nun friends will be praying for you today. The 9AM mass this morning at St Catherine's Girls Academy in Novi was offered for you, and the cloistered nuns at Notting Hill in London will be having you in their prayers this day. I was just notified that my Monday Night Bible Study class was cancelled, so I will be in the adoration chapel as you are being tested.ReplyDelete
God is on your side, always. You are not alone.
I join my prayers with those of everyone else :)ReplyDelete
Prayers for you tonight- that you might get answers and be restored to full health.ReplyDelete
You are in my prayers right this, and will be tonight at 9:30 pm as well. I will put you on some prayer lists I'm a part of as well. Try to place your trust in God, that He is holding you the way you hold your own little ones, and He's got you by one hand, and Our Lady has you by the other. You've been through many things these past years, fearsome things, yet He guided you through them step by step. He will do the same for this as well.ReplyDelete
May the Spirit of God overshadow you and give you Peace. God bless. Bonnie
With my prayers also.ReplyDelete
Prayers for you and your family.. You need to KNOW for sure & for certain what the cause of this is so you can either find a cure or be at peace with it.. Prayers continueReplyDelete