Things started out well. I managed to keep up with my daily prayers through the first month. Some days I would only say one rosary, but the next day I would say three and I began to feel confident that I really could find a place for prayer, despite the business of every day life with a toddler and infant.
Then I started falling asleep mid-rosary.
The funny thing is that I don't feel all that tired. Maggie's a good sleeper, and Sadie's sleeping through the night now, so I get a solid seven hours (waking a couple of times to nurse) of sleep most nights. That's more sleep than I've gotten on a regular basis in over two years. I'm finally starting to feel rested. So falling asleep mid-way through the first decade of my second rosary (the first was usually earlier in the day) just didn't make sense.
However I compounded the problem by continuing to add up rosaries. If I'd fallen asleep for six out of seven days before completing both rosaries, I had six to make up. Rosaries started to add up fast.
I decided to make it easier on myself by cutting the number of decades a day in half. After all, it was my own goal, and I'd just had a baby...
Suddenly though, I found myself falling asleep during the first decade of the first rosary. And since I'd been keeping track I knew that I had a huge backlog of rosaries that I wanted to pray...
I found that I was so stressed out by my own standards that I stepped back and took a little break. During this break, I discovered several important facts. Here they are in no particular order:
- Some people need a cup of coffee before they can really start their day. Before that caffeine hits their system, they have a hard time dealing with other people. Rosaries are kind of like my coffee. I'm happier (and by extension nicer) when I've prayed in the not so distant past (say within twenty four hours).
- When I stopped saying daily rosaries the migraines I'd been complaining about this past month, started. I didn't make the connection until I started praying a rosary during a migraine last week, and the migraine disappeared. It didn't come back either. I've now been migraine free for two weeks. This is rather dramatic motivation to pray. I talked with my doctor about it today (he attends our parish too) and we're both pretty happy with this alternative to pain killers!
- Over the past four years praying the rosary has become a very important part of my life and our family life. And I wouldn't want it any other way!
My new goal is to focus on the prayers that are a part of my day and not to worry too much on the days when things are hectic and I end up falling asleep half way through my first decade.