Monday, December 19, 2011
Night Time Dreams
Me: "Guess who we're going to see?"
Sadie: "Jesus!" After a long pause. "Will God be there?"
Sadie: "Will the baby be there?"
Because I always tell her that the baby is in heaven with Jesus and Mary and so if Jesus is going to be at Mass, the obvious conclusion is that the baby might be there too...
But I can field those questions, although they make me want to hug her! The nightmares are harder.
She's been waking up with nightmares 9 out of 10 nights. And it's always the same. I come rushing into the room after hearing her crying and hand Mae her pacifier (because Sadie screaming pretty much always wakes up her sister) and then go to talk to Sadie, who's sobbing, sometimes to the point of shaking. I'll ask her why she's crying and the answer is always the same: "The new baby." And I'll ask her what she dreamed about the baby. For the past few months the answer was always silence.
Me: "Did you have a bad dream?"
Sadie: "Yes!" (between sobs)
Me: "What was it about?" (I've been hoping if we talked about the dream, and whatever it is she's dreaming, she might start to feel better about everything. At least that's my hope.)
Sadie: "Our baby!!!!"
Me: "What happened in your dream?"
Sadie: "The new baby went to heaven!!!!" (more crying)
Me: "The baby is in heaven sweetie, and the baby is really happy there. Everybody's happy in heaven." And she slips back to sleep.
We've talked about it a lot when she's brought up the baby. We've talked about how the baby is safe and happy in heaven, how it's okay to feel sad, and how the baby is with Jesus, but nothing seems to make it any easier for her, and nothing changes the nightmares.
I guess it should get better with time? I just wish there was something I could do to help her...