|The pitocin has been raised six times and.... |
still feeling good!
Added to that was my fear of pitocin. I've had it before. It's nasty stuff. I remember it from my labor with Sadie and would wince when it came up in conversation with any of the doctors. But when the formerly consistent contractions came to a stop this morning I knew that my chances of a VBA2C hinged on getting things started, so I reluctantly agreed (after timing my own contractions while pacing the halls and realizing that they just weren't starting again...). After all, now that my water has broken (if you missed the post, it broke on its own, without any help! Yay for that!), it's not like they'll be sending me home. And the threat of a c-section if nothing happens is... well... it's definitely here.
So the pitocin drip began and I braced myself for the worst. The contractions picked up a bit, but were virtually painless. There was more pitocin and more contractions and the cycles continued. The contractions are around three minutes apart now. They're around a minute long. They feel incredibly intense. There's pressure and an ache. But it's certainly bearable. And more than that I feel really happy every time I have a contraction, which is a hypnobabies suggestion that I was totally skeptical of originally, but which seems to be set into my subconscious after listening to the tracts many, many times. And that happy feeling is during the contraction, which is really, really strange.
I know we aren't guaranteed smooth sailing from here, but I'm cautiously optimistic. I just saw in the nurses report on the computer as she typed it in that I'm making good progress...
And that's the latest update! Could it be that I'm actually not going to have a birth horror story this forth time around? I'm cautiously optimistic!