Saturday, August 25, 2012
Birth Center? Hospital? Decisions, Decisions...
Or at least, that's how it felt.
You see, I've longed to be able to go to a birth center. And when I heard about birth centers attached to hospitals I would sigh dreamily and think that I would totally do that. But the birth centers near me have always been out of reach... far off impossibilities and while I could dream of the loveliness it was always obvious, after three minutes on a website, that I wasn't the kind of patient that they took on. No high risk patients, No VBACS has been common wherever we've been.
Yesterday I had one major goal (and a whole bunch of little tiny goals): Find a new doctor and set up an appointment as soon as possible. After all, we're rapidly approaching 30 weeks.
I had already done some research online before we moved, but upon finding out that the hospital that's really close to our house does have an OB section, I began checking out the statistics and doctor's website at that hospital.
I began to look at parenting boards to see if there were doctor suggestions.
And that's when I saw it. A woman suggesting a birth center, not far from our home, who explained that she had had a VBA2C at the center, and that they specialized in VBACs.
Because, you know, I've always thought I would enthusiastically jump at a chance like that... and yet I found myself pausing and thinking of the 2% chance of uterine rupture that I now face. And while one part of me couldn't help but think that 98% are mighty good odds, the other part said, if you're part of that 2% you better hope you're in the hospital.
At the same time I don't like the statistically increasing risk of c-section after c-section either. In fact I like that much, much less.
In the end I closed the birth center page and called a doctor's office. And then another. And then another. And then finally, the University, where I now have an OB who'll see me.
I breathed a sigh of relief. And felt like a wimp. I think I need to go read some more Ina May...
I'm holding out hope, yet again, that at a hospital that claims that all of it's OBs do VBACs, I might actually be allowed to try... I guess we'll have a better idea after my appointment on the 4th!